WAH!! Today is my dearest aiai's birthday...
Ytd we sort of celebrated his birthday... by cooking spaghetti for him... how do u define celebrate ? must have cake one rite ? haha .. no cake for him leh .. at least got spag..
anyway... it was quite a good idea to cook on that day.. cos one hit kill two birds . . HAHA ..i not only cook for him.. i have to cook for his mom as well... as it was his mom's 20th annivesary... and it was cal's idea to ask me to cook for his mom too .. GREAT IDEA ? Hell no ... i was so nervous.. i scare it doesn't suit his taste yet cooking for one more ppl... actually i cooked for everyone...HAHA...
I keep asking around whether is it nice or not... everyone give me a thumbup... ^_^ SUCESSFUL that's y one hit kill 2 birds...
"Celebrated" cal's and his mom's... =P
Or should i say it killed 3 birds ?LOLX !!! cos....
It was also a good idea to cook on that day too.. cos i have been dying to hear they accept me as cal's gf or ask him whether i'm his gf or not...HAHA.. becos since the first day they saw me till ytd they acknowledge me as his friend.. "yr friend..... yr friend...." lolx
Finally they acknowledge me as his gf... ^_^
On 02-09-06, i went to kukup tour with my family and the church members...
This tour guide is high in empathy, man... haha!! using what i have learn in school .. the food was very fresh and delicious.. especially the chilli crab, though it's a bit small .... about the size of my palm !!! SMALL RITE ?? it's like ... jus one bit.... then no more liao... haha...
I wont forget that chilli crab sauce =P
Woah!!! u noe a shopping mall in KL name JUSCO... i think it's in KL... not so sure... but it's SO SO HUGE !!! it's like 3 to 4 times the size of Jurong Point!!
My dad says he's gonna bring us go there again... =P
I'm gonna bring cal there too if his parents allow him~!! HAHA!!
Woot~! goin prawn fishing tml!!!!!!!! Yea!
Hope cal be able to catch at least 1 prawn ... oops~! =X
Ok .. i think i should have add more details abt my groupmates in my pervious blog... however i didnt cos its taking up a lot of time.. and... if i go into so much details, there will be lots of offence...
Anyway .. i can tell u honestly that i did put in much effort .. perhaps some ppl think that is too little or wat, compared to the rest...i mean dun u agree that ppl tends to compare the things they do ?
I admit that my eng sux to the core .. that's wat my groupmates said abt me .. they find it troublesome or hindrance to them.. hey.. that's really hurts, man.. it not they said it during the project... it's after the whole thingy.. and they say i'm adding them more work instead of lessening the work.. cos they have to do the extra job which is editing my work many times..
Shouldn't they voice out earlier ? at least i can do something abt it.. right?
" looking at things in both sides, if you would think about it. i suppose that if she has done her work, the people will recognise her efforts, however at the same time"
Do u mean that all the people will recognise someone's effort ? Not all rite?
"Back to the accusing part.. they say i give irrelevant questions and answers.. when i approach teacher, she said mine is correct one.. no matter how i tell them .. they wont reply.. only respond to the ppl who they LOVE.."
I quoted this jus in case someone didnt see... at least i did approach teacher for help.. And they dun even wan to listen how to recognise me ?
Yea.. COMMUNICATION... we did lack .. it takes 2 hand to make a clap.. one dun bother, how to communicate...
And i agree with u that i dun suit into HTM... i'm glad u r the lucky one who got into the course which u are fit in, rite ?
Let me tell u how i got in despite my points which is 15.. which is totally far away from the cut-off points.. I got in thru the interview.. hey .. dun say i bribed the teachers or the teacher is one of my relatives.. Haha.. None of the above..
I went thru the interview very well .. i speaked a lot and answered some questions which surprised the interviewers.. i believe they see the potential in me.. if not they wont take in me.. cos there are many more ppl who got the better points than me yet they cant get in .. i'm not boasting about how good am i .. Jus to tell u that what ppl can see in me, u might not be able to see it...
Anyway, thanks for yr comments.. i'll keep that in mind.. =)
Feel free to drop in more comments...
Classmates.. Frens... I have .. but not like yrs.. they are different.. some, u can trust.. others, u cant.. it takes 2 days to know the person's name, profile, etc.. it takes 2 years to know and UNDERSTAND the person...
Courses and schools.. different types of ppl.. the different between Business school and Engineering school.. Business have their business culture.. while engineering have theirs...
Business are more independent than engineering .. (SORRY..NO OFFENCE.. )
Someone said "In the past.. engineering used to be very "in".. NOw is Business"
Cos so "FASIONABLE" ... High competitive...
Many ppl wants to get diploma in merit..
Why?!?
Cos degree is also now very "in".. No degree = No future (SORRY..NO OFFENCE..TAKEN FROM SOMEONE"S SAYING)
How to get diploma in merit ? Have to kick some ppl out.. pull down their marks ?
Is it really becos of the course ? or is it got to do with some groups of ppl?
I envied other courses so much... they have less projects.. less POLITICS...
Projects which comes with peer evaluations .. in my class sure die one.. or should i say ..if u are in the wrong group sure die one...
Many ppl say peer evaluation helps u to pull up yr marks.. like i said.. mine is diff from yrs..
I was totally pulled down.. even 1 or 2 good souls also cant help me ..
I dun care wat the damn thing they say abt me or how they feel abt me.. but being accused is not a very good feeling... And i dun care whether they gossip who cos they LOVE TO GOSSIP ALL THE TIME... thinking they are very perfect... come on la.. if u hate that person, dun gossip their boyfriend or girlfren, they nvr offend u lor..
Back to the accusing part.. they said i gave irrelevant questions and answers.. when i approach teacher, she said mine is the correct one.. no matter how i tell them.. they jus dun listen.. and if u ask them .. they wont reply.. only respond to the ppl who they LOVE...
To participate in projects, we need to do some work.. like coming up with .. findings, conclusion, recommendation, etc... lots of things to do... one of my mem asked for work.. they said "oh .. no need.. we will do ourselve... conclusion, recommendation bao ka liao(cover all)" Sound so efficient ...
Then very late at nite.. "oh.. cant finish leh... so MANY things to do.. can u please do the conclusion for me?" Kiang dio hoe, mai gei kiang...
they say i didnt give any ideas... or is it their ideas too" good" until the teacher say not realistic.. then they very disappointed... when i give ideas, who is listening ? no one.. talk to the wall lor... ppl say "qiang you er duo...(walls got ears)" a very sad thing is .. "ke shi mei you zui ba... (but no mouth)"
Not only in this subject.. there are others.. one of them become so pro then she got one subject which need group work.. she almost bao ka liao.. then at the back saying how much she done.. ppl praise her then must a bit HUMBLE rite..."No la.. i jus did wat i suppose to do.." u said that one ...then u shouldn't say other ppl didnt do this or that la... cos is u self volunteer ...
Another bad news is i got debarment from one of my subjects.. cos absent thrice which is more than twice.. u all will ask whethter i got mc or not.. of course i got .. but i didnt give.. cos i tot i only absent twice.. then i think no need so ma fan go see that course manager.. therefore.. here's the consequences of not handing in yr mc... =(
And then hor.. that subject teacher like so kind and calm enuff.. "although u no need to go for the exam.. u still have to study... all the best for yr sup exam..." =( HAIZ..
I learn a lot of things from today... though.. not my happy day.. shi bai shi chen gong zhi mu.. (the failure is the one which lead to success)
Jia You cLaRa !!! (sorry huh.. encouragin myself) HAHA
I WANT TO EAT CHOCOLATE...
Ha! Someone wanted to go watch The Ghost Game badly.. lolx.. it's a thai movie.. normally thai movie very scary.. cos of that SHUTTER... i 1 week cant sleep properly.. then very scare using the blacket.. nowadays they like to shoot those show in the room then the girl pull yr blacket then u realize someone is pulling then dun noe who.. then suddenly u saw tat girl starin at u .. then CRAWL TOWARDS U... EEEEEK !!
I remember one of my frens say which is quite true... "Lang fei qian lai xia zi ji" (waste money just to scare yrself) LOLX ...
But for those who seldom exercise or poor blood circulation, watch horror movie is good for u... LOLX
Today i brought my colourful bag.. u noe... he dun like carry de.. we went to rip curl trying on the clothes.. i asked him to hold my bag.. then he so guai.. willing to carry.. LOLX
When i walk out of the that shop, he still holding ma.. eh.. i didnt bully him la.. =X
But then he did realize it .. then he wanted to return it to me.. =(.. lolx.. but then i acted as if i dun noe.. then i still dun wan to take.. then he "huh... mmmmmmm" like sia jiao .. =X he was on my right.. and we r holding hands.. he was carrying it on his left hand but he very pai sei, he wanted to carry on the right hand which was holding my left hand..
Why he wanna do that ? BECAUSE... this will make the ppl tot that "i" was carrying it.. -_-
But he was so cute..=X
Bishan Junction 8
I remember someone say " when we are working, we are frens and colleagues... after working, we are colleagues but not frens." I always tot that mine would be diff.. =X .. it didnt turn out the way i wan it to be.. =(
Woah.. Melody Chan.. So different from the magazine and tv.. she look slimmer in real.. but her arms a bit chubby.. But she so PRETTY .. perhaps it becos of the distance .. most ppl look flawless from far.. and also make up is our tempory mask for our pimples or blemish.. that y she look perfectly pretty.. haha.. MAYBE la..
but someone is drooling .. =( .. i see the way he look at the artist and the way he look at me.. Wa... lots of different lor.. i never see him use this kind of looks to look at me leh.. ok la .. though i not as pretty as melody.. but it feels so different, so wrong.. i kept telling myself is i too sensitive and somemore.. aritist leh.. who wouldn't look at he/she that way...
But i wouldnt look at male artist that way.. cos i got aiai ler..
Ok.. Prove me wrong.. LET ME SEE THE MOST HANDSOME ARTIST .. let me drool.. =(
Then on tat national day, my famil actually organise a steamboat to celebrate national day .. haha .. i told my frens abt it and 1 of them find it so lame .. ai guo ai dao zheng yang (love country love until like tat) ... =( U dun love meh ? get out of this country then... lol
then i invited my bf to come over ... haha ... cos i wanted him to see the video that i made for him de.. then this video can save into dvd.. but my programme dun recognise that portable drive..
-_- .. if not it will be very nice.. cos i actually also make the dvd menu... lol
then i realise i shouldnt have shown him on that day which he came for the steamboat.. cos he was so nervous till u can see his actions and his hands were cold like ice.. haha...
so when i show him my masterpiece, he wasn't look in so touch.. =( which i was very disappointed .. i wanted to do something for my love ones and make him feel so so touch and fortunate.. so .. i made a wrong decision to let him see on that day .. but i was too excited and anxious ... =X
Phew.. Business Computing Skill Exam OVER !! =)
Like i said in my last blog i'm going to continue his story .. lol
Imagine u are doin a 150 surveys on ppl and u have to bring it to school on the next day..
On that very next day, yr group mates talk to u abt the surveys and they were very enthusiastic abt finishing it by tat day... but u realize that u didnt bring it ... wad will u do ?
U wouldnt want to disappoint them rite ? Go home and bring it back?
but it's time consuming..
I sms him .. and told him abt my prob.. at tat was abt 11 plus .. my lesson ended at 4.. he actually offered to help me and bring it to school. i mean.. normally... very few ppl will do this .. cos too far or too lazy... but cos of love u willing to do it for yr love one despite living at the other end of the island.. that really touches me ..
Abt 11.45, i actually didnt notice the phone and my bag was like 1 metre away from me.. when he reaches my house.. there's no one answering when he press the bell.. i think he waited for 5 mins.. he then sms me for "help" and i actually didnt reply.. wth i was... =(
And he reached my school ard 12.10.. and i had abt 6 missed calls from him.. =( .. until i finally heard a vibration from my bag.. I picked up my phone in front of my teacher! Fortunately this teacher was so kind.. haha.. she didnt fine me .. and being a very understanding teacher, she allowed me to go down and take my things.
I met him at the 2nd floor.. and he seem rushing..
cLaRa: " So sorry !!! i was having a tutorial class! Did u wait very long?"
CaLvIn: " Quite.. abt 10 mins.." looking very disappointed
cLaRa: " Er.. u are rushing to ? and i tot u suppose to come at 4..."
CaLvIn: " i'm goin to school now.. my lesson start at 1 .."
cLaRa: " HUH?!? then the more u should come at 4 !"
CaLvIn: " No.. my school ends at 5 plus.. that's y i rush here immediately after i put down the phone"
cLaRa: " sorry....... so sorry... are u angry? "
CaLvIn:" No.. Bye.. " =
Wa... my heart hurts a lot .. and very touched.. hurts cos he has been smsing me and calling me for many times.. and no responses... like ignoring him.. =( ... touched cos he rushed down immediately and he knows that he's gonna be late yet he still come down...
Then i kept thinking abt him.. i really scare he's gonna be angry cos i caused him to wait and late for school.. he sound ok when i called him.. and he actually sound happy when i received his sms... he's very wonderful... i admired his patience.. his understanding..
It made me feel so fortunate to have him and make me wanna cherish him more.. =)
This was taken when i went to his house.. and we took lots of photos .. but most of them, i look so ugly then i deleted and he also deleted !! =X ... well .. love spending time with him .. he was so sweet and caring .. love being with someone i love most .. =) haha .. finally finish almost all my projects ... hope i can spend more time blogging ..but i'll try to blog it everyday .. haha.. er.. there's so many things happening .. then dun know where to start..
Ok .. let me try to think how to start my blog ..
Hmmm.. Do u noe that all humans are very greedy, they wan more than their expectation .. ?
Well.. i think everyone is like tat rite ? that's include myself too.. i always wanted a guy who is so sweet, like .. i expect him to do this, do that.. like follow drama series or wat.. i mean all girls are like that ma .. they expect their bf to be so understanding .. but must see how they show.. perhaps i always wanted to see him being understanding to wat i need..
cos one day, my feets hurt a lot due to the training thing and i was wearing a pair of court shoes and it's pointed shoes somemore.. then my feets also got blisters on my small toes .. that was the most terrible thing i ever got .. then cannot stand too long also.. needless to say even walk also will die.. cos when standing the feet keep on goin forward due to the high heel ma.. then the pointed shoes was like quite squeezy for my 4 littles toes .. and 1 big toe..
Then the most unfortunate thing is that when we go home, we took the train ... when we first entered the train.. still got spaces ma .. but due to my "handicap", i cannot move fast to take the seats.. hey .. dun say i very kia su or wat.. when u wear tat time u will noe y i wan to sit.. u ask me other day if i not wearing the court shoes, i dun mind standing from pasir ris to boon lay.. tat day i really wanted to sit badly.. then his case is like ... cos he always take train to my house from his house or to his sch .. he get used to standing .. so he dun might standing from city hall to eunos.. so.. i was quite upset and disappointed to his reactions ( he walk to the door there and stand) lolx!!! i was like .. huh ? yr gf in pain, u still wan her to stand.. u understanding anot ? ..
Then i told him..in a upset and a bit angry tone.. then he was like.. feeling that he himself is an useless bf or wat.. =X... then when comes to my stop.. he tried to help me take my bag.. but my bag that colourful one he dun like to take one lor .. cos all along he say like very pai sei.. doesn't suit him or wat.. but when u standing beside a gal and carry that bag hor .. ppl sure noe u carrying for yr gf one ma... i always see guys carry for a gal i felt very envious .. not that he didnt offer to help me take .. he got carry my black sling bag .. but those girl's de handbags.. he didnt.. =( ..
anyway .. back to that mrt hor.. he so called "snatched" cos he was feelin upset .. then he see me in pain .. then he wans to carry that bag for me.. but i noe him too well ... i noe he dun like to carry this bag .. then some more ppl snatch from u .. shows that the person dun like it but being force to do it lor .. then i really got angry .. then i threaten him .. if he dun return me the bag... i will not go home .. in the end .. he returned.. i saw the sadness in his eyes... i heart pain ... =(
That's how e gals see how guys treat them .. but we should not take things for granted.. a small little move (which we didnt notice) means a lot..and we like to see and rmb the negative sides then the positive sides.. lolx ...
Cos on tat day... while we walking at the city link.. he was rushing .. then my feets cannot ta han ... then i said " hey .. u noe my feets hurt lor.. then still walk so fast .." first thing came to yr mind is that he not understand.. but actually he wans to end my pain faster .. faster go home .. faster take out shoes, faster end the pain .. =) ..that was the touching part..
While waiting outside at the waruku restaurant, there's no seat available.. then he asked me to take out the shoes.. stand on his NIKE shoes... $ 170 ++ shoes.. if me.. i will xin tong.. cos if stand then got the skin of the shoes crack or wat .. not nice ma.. but he said" nvm.. stand on it" i was like ... awwwww... so sweet..
Then i came from a poor family background.. not so poor or wat la .. but my allowance sometime got take or nvr take .. cos i noe that my parents sometime quite short of cash ma.. then i dun dare to ask for money ..
One day, my wallet really no money liao .. dun noe spend on wat .. then but i not so worried abt my money .. cos can lose weight ma .. no money=no food= lose weight. LOLX .. the next day morning .. i was smsing to him .. then he asked .. got money to eat anot.. then i told him i dun have money .. but nvm la, can cut weight .. then he replied to me this " *chanting some magic words* go check yr wallet" i was like huh ? then i went and checked my wallet.. Eh ? how come got money .. then somemore it more than my parents will give me one lor ..
i replied" Eh? when u put the money in my wallet ?"
he : "when u asleep that night, i asked the angel to put in yr wallet."
I was like dumbfounded.. oh man... isnt he so sweet ? i felt so so touch.. he's there whenever i need help ... he's always be there for me ...
That's lot more to say abt him .. but it's getting very "early" .. haha .. the sun is coming out soon.. better go and sleep liao .. haha
p.s : Cont on the next blog .. =) (if i have time )