Understand Clara's feeling...

2006-09-28T06:58:00.000-07:00

Finally i have time to blog... wahaha

WAH!! Today is my dearest aiai's birthday...

Ytd we sort of celebrated his birthday... by cooking spaghetti for him... how do u define celebrate ? must have cake one rite ? haha .. no cake for him leh .. at least got spag..

anyway... it was quite a good idea to cook on that day.. cos one hit kill two birds . . HAHA ..i not only cook for him.. i have to cook for his mom as well... as it was his mom's 20th annivesary... and it was cal's idea to ask me to cook for his mom too .. GREAT IDEA ? Hell no ... i was so nervous.. i scare it doesn't suit his taste yet cooking for one more ppl... actually i cooked for everyone...HAHA...

I keep asking around whether is it nice or not... everyone give me a thumbup... ^_^ SUCESSFUL that's y one hit kill 2 birds...
"Celebrated" cal's and his mom's... =P

Or should i say it killed 3 birds ?LOLX !!! cos....

It was also a good idea to cook on that day too.. cos i have been dying to hear they accept me as cal's gf or ask him whether i'm his gf or not...HAHA.. becos since the first day they saw me till ytd they acknowledge me as his friend.. "yr friend..... yr friend...." lolx

Finally they acknowledge me as his gf... ^_^

2006-09-04T06:44:00.000-07:00

Great!! finally holiday is here !! But i still as busy as bee... =(

On 02-09-06, i went to kukup tour with my family and the church members...
This tour guide is high in empathy, man... haha!! using what i have learn in school .. the food was very fresh and delicious.. especially the chilli crab, though it's a bit small .... about the size of my palm !!! SMALL RITE ?? it's like ... jus one bit.... then no more liao... haha...

I wont forget that chilli crab sauce =P

Woah!!! u noe a shopping mall in KL name JUSCO... i think it's in KL... not so sure... but it's SO SO HUGE !!! it's like 3 to 4 times the size of Jurong Point!!

My dad says he's gonna bring us go there again... =P

I'm gonna bring cal there too if his parents allow him~!! HAHA!!

Woot~! goin prawn fishing tml!!!!!!!! Yea!
Hope cal be able to catch at least 1 prawn ... oops~! =X

2006-09-02T07:00:00.000-07:00

Woah woah woah ... hahaha.. the tagbox look so interesting..

Ok .. i think i should have add more details abt my groupmates in my pervious blog... however i didnt cos its taking up a lot of time.. and... if i go into so much details, there will be lots of offence...

Anyway .. i can tell u honestly that i did put in much effort .. perhaps some ppl think that is too little or wat, compared to the rest...i mean dun u agree that ppl tends to compare the things they do ?

I admit that my eng sux to the core .. that's wat my groupmates said abt me .. they find it troublesome or hindrance to them.. hey.. that's really hurts, man.. it not they said it during the project... it's after the whole thingy.. and they say i'm adding them more work instead of lessening the work.. cos they have to do the extra job which is editing my work many times..

Shouldn't they voice out earlier ? at least i can do something abt it.. right?

" looking at things in both sides, if you would think about it. i suppose that if she has done her work, the people will recognise her efforts, however at the same time"

Do u mean that all the people will recognise someone's effort ? Not all rite?

"Back to the accusing part.. they say i give irrelevant questions and answers.. when i approach teacher, she said mine is correct one.. no matter how i tell them .. they wont reply.. only respond to the ppl who they LOVE.."

I quoted this jus in case someone didnt see... at least i did approach teacher for help.. And they dun even wan to listen how to recognise me ?

Yea.. COMMUNICATION... we did lack .. it takes 2 hand to make a clap.. one dun bother, how to communicate...

And i agree with u that i dun suit into HTM... i'm glad u r the lucky one who got into the course which u are fit in, rite ?

Let me tell u how i got in despite my points which is 15.. which is totally far away from the cut-off points.. I got in thru the interview.. hey .. dun say i bribed the teachers or the teacher is one of my relatives.. Haha.. None of the above..

I went thru the interview very well .. i speaked a lot and answered some questions which surprised the interviewers.. i believe they see the potential in me.. if not they wont take in me.. cos there are many more ppl who got the better points than me yet they cant get in .. i'm not boasting about how good am i .. Jus to tell u that what ppl can see in me, u might not be able to see it...

Anyway, thanks for yr comments.. i'll keep that in mind.. =)

Feel free to drop in more comments...

2006-08-15T08:43:00.000-07:00

Today isnt my day...

Classmates.. Frens... I have .. but not like yrs.. they are different.. some, u can trust.. others, u cant.. it takes 2 days to know the person's name, profile, etc.. it takes 2 years to know and UNDERSTAND the person...

Courses and schools.. different types of ppl.. the different between Business school and Engineering school.. Business have their business culture.. while engineering have theirs...
Business are more independent than engineering .. (SORRY..NO OFFENCE.. )
Someone said "In the past.. engineering used to be very "in".. NOw is Business"
Cos so "FASIONABLE" ... High competitive...

Many ppl wants to get diploma in merit..
Why?!?
Cos degree is also now very "in".. No degree = No future (SORRY..NO OFFENCE..TAKEN FROM SOMEONE"S SAYING)

How to get diploma in merit ? Have to kick some ppl out.. pull down their marks ?

Is it really becos of the course ? or is it got to do with some groups of ppl?

I envied other courses so much... they have less projects.. less POLITICS...
Projects which comes with peer evaluations .. in my class sure die one.. or should i say ..if u are in the wrong group sure die one...

Many ppl say peer evaluation helps u to pull up yr marks.. like i said.. mine is diff from yrs..
I was totally pulled down.. even 1 or 2 good souls also cant help me ..

I dun care wat the damn thing they say abt me or how they feel abt me.. but being accused is not a very good feeling... And i dun care whether they gossip who cos they LOVE TO GOSSIP ALL THE TIME... thinking they are very perfect... come on la.. if u hate that person, dun gossip their boyfriend or girlfren, they nvr offend u lor..

Back to the accusing part.. they said i gave irrelevant questions and answers.. when i approach teacher, she said mine is the correct one.. no matter how i tell them.. they jus dun listen.. and if u ask them .. they wont reply.. only respond to the ppl who they LOVE...

To participate in projects, we need to do some work.. like coming up with .. findings, conclusion, recommendation, etc... lots of things to do... one of my mem asked for work.. they said "oh .. no need.. we will do ourselve... conclusion, recommendation bao ka liao(cover all)" Sound so efficient ...

Then very late at nite.. "oh.. cant finish leh... so MANY things to do.. can u please do the conclusion for me?" Kiang dio hoe, mai gei kiang...

they say i didnt give any ideas... or is it their ideas too" good" until the teacher say not realistic.. then they very disappointed... when i give ideas, who is listening ? no one.. talk to the wall lor... ppl say "qiang you er duo...(walls got ears)" a very sad thing is .. "ke shi mei you zui ba... (but no mouth)"

Not only in this subject.. there are others.. one of them become so pro then she got one subject which need group work.. she almost bao ka liao.. then at the back saying how much she done.. ppl praise her then must a bit HUMBLE rite..."No la.. i jus did wat i suppose to do.." u said that one ...then u shouldn't say other ppl didnt do this or that la... cos is u self volunteer ...

Another bad news is i got debarment from one of my subjects.. cos absent thrice which is more than twice.. u all will ask whethter i got mc or not.. of course i got .. but i didnt give.. cos i tot i only absent twice.. then i think no need so ma fan go see that course manager.. therefore.. here's the consequences of not handing in yr mc... =(

And then hor.. that subject teacher like so kind and calm enuff.. "although u no need to go for the exam.. u still have to study... all the best for yr sup exam..." =( HAIZ..

I learn a lot of things from today... though.. not my happy day.. shi bai shi chen gong zhi mu.. (the failure is the one which lead to success)
Jia You cLaRa !!! (sorry huh.. encouragin myself) HAHA

I WANT TO EAT CHOCOLATE...

2006-08-12T07:03:00.000-07:00

Haiz.. i have been trying to upload my pic into this blog... it jus came up "The pic have been successfully uploaded" then on the next window below, it says "error on this page" WT....H ...

Ha! Someone wanted to go watch The Ghost Game badly.. lolx.. it's a thai movie.. normally thai movie very scary.. cos of that SHUTTER... i 1 week cant sleep properly.. then very scare using the blacket.. nowadays they like to shoot those show in the room then the girl pull yr blacket then u realize someone is pulling then dun noe who.. then suddenly u saw tat girl starin at u .. then CRAWL TOWARDS U... EEEEEK !!

I remember one of my frens say which is quite true... "Lang fei qian lai xia zi ji" (waste money just to scare yrself) LOLX ...

But for those who seldom exercise or poor blood circulation, watch horror movie is good for u... LOLX

Today i brought my colourful bag.. u noe... he dun like carry de.. we went to rip curl trying on the clothes.. i asked him to hold my bag.. then he so guai.. willing to carry.. LOLX

When i walk out of the that shop, he still holding ma.. eh.. i didnt bully him la.. =X
But then he did realize it .. then he wanted to return it to me.. =(.. lolx.. but then i acted as if i dun noe.. then i still dun wan to take.. then he "huh... mmmmmmm" like sia jiao .. =X he was on my right.. and we r holding hands.. he was carrying it on his left hand but he very pai sei, he wanted to carry on the right hand which was holding my left hand..

Why he wanna do that ? BECAUSE... this will make the ppl tot that "i" was carrying it.. -_-

But he was so cute..=X

Bishan Junction 8
I remember someone say " when we are working, we are frens and colleagues... after working, we are colleagues but not frens." I always tot that mine would be diff.. =X .. it didnt turn out the way i wan it to be.. =(

Woah.. Melody Chan.. So different from the magazine and tv.. she look slimmer in real.. but her arms a bit chubby.. But she so PRETTY .. perhaps it becos of the distance .. most ppl look flawless from far.. and also make up is our tempory mask for our pimples or blemish.. that y she look perfectly pretty.. haha.. MAYBE la..

but someone is drooling .. =( .. i see the way he look at the artist and the way he look at me.. Wa... lots of different lor.. i never see him use this kind of looks to look at me leh.. ok la .. though i not as pretty as melody.. but it feels so different, so wrong.. i kept telling myself is i too sensitive and somemore.. aritist leh.. who wouldn't look at he/she that way...
But i wouldnt look at male artist that way.. cos i got aiai ler..
Ok.. Prove me wrong.. LET ME SEE THE MOST HANDSOME ARTIST .. let me drool.. =(

2006-08-11T06:25:00.000-07:00

Hey.. i actually went to make a video of us ... hahah... it took me 4 hrs to do it .. then another 2 hours the next day... =( i dead beat...

Then on tat national day, my famil actually organise a steamboat to celebrate national day .. haha .. i told my frens abt it and 1 of them find it so lame .. ai guo ai dao zheng yang (love country love until like tat) ... =( U dun love meh ? get out of this country then... lol

then i invited my bf to come over ... haha ... cos i wanted him to see the video that i made for him de.. then this video can save into dvd.. but my programme dun recognise that portable drive..
-_- .. if not it will be very nice.. cos i actually also make the dvd menu... lol

then i realise i shouldnt have shown him on that day which he came for the steamboat.. cos he was so nervous till u can see his actions and his hands were cold like ice.. haha...
so when i show him my masterpiece, he wasn't look in so touch.. =( which i was very disappointed .. i wanted to do something for my love ones and make him feel so so touch and fortunate.. so .. i made a wrong decision to let him see on that day .. but i was too excited and anxious ... =X

2006-08-11T05:33:00.000-07:00

Phew.. Business Computing Skill Exam OVER !! =)

Like i said in my last blog i'm going to continue his story .. lol

Imagine u are doin a 150 surveys on ppl and u have to bring it to school on the next day..
On that very next day, yr group mates talk to u abt the surveys and they were very enthusiastic abt finishing it by tat day... but u realize that u didnt bring it ... wad will u do ?
U wouldnt want to disappoint them rite ? Go home and bring it back?
but it's time consuming..

I sms him .. and told him abt my prob.. at tat was abt 11 plus .. my lesson ended at 4.. he actually offered to help me and bring it to school. i mean.. normally... very few ppl will do this .. cos too far or too lazy... but cos of love u willing to do it for yr love one despite living at the other end of the island.. that really touches me ..

Abt 11.45, i actually didnt notice the phone and my bag was like 1 metre away from me.. when he reaches my house.. there's no one answering when he press the bell.. i think he waited for 5 mins.. he then sms me for "help" and i actually didnt reply.. wth i was... =(

And he reached my school ard 12.10.. and i had abt 6 missed calls from him.. =( .. until i finally heard a vibration from my bag.. I picked up my phone in front of my teacher! Fortunately this teacher was so kind.. haha.. she didnt fine me .. and being a very understanding teacher, she allowed me to go down and take my things.

I met him at the 2nd floor.. and he seem rushing..

cLaRa: " So sorry !!! i was having a tutorial class! Did u wait very long?"
CaLvIn: " Quite.. abt 10 mins.." looking very disappointed
cLaRa: " Er.. u are rushing to ? and i tot u suppose to come at 4..."
CaLvIn: " i'm goin to school now.. my lesson start at 1 .."
cLaRa: " HUH?!? then the more u should come at 4 !"
CaLvIn: " No.. my school ends at 5 plus.. that's y i rush here immediately after i put down the phone"
cLaRa: " sorry....... so sorry... are u angry? "
CaLvIn:" No.. Bye.. " =

Wa... my heart hurts a lot .. and very touched.. hurts cos he has been smsing me and calling me for many times.. and no responses... like ignoring him.. =( ... touched cos he rushed down immediately and he knows that he's gonna be late yet he still come down...

Then i kept thinking abt him.. i really scare he's gonna be angry cos i caused him to wait and late for school.. he sound ok when i called him.. and he actually sound happy when i received his sms... he's very wonderful... i admired his patience.. his understanding..

It made me feel so fortunate to have him and make me wanna cherish him more.. =)

2006-08-07T09:21:00.000-07:00

This was taken when i went to his house.. and we took lots of photos .. but most of them, i look so ugly then i deleted and he also deleted !! =X ... well .. love spending time with him .. he was so sweet and caring .. love being with someone i love most .. =) haha .. finally finish almost all my projects ... hope i can spend more time blogging ..but i'll try to blog it everyday .. haha.. er.. there's so many things happening .. then dun know where to start..

Ok .. let me try to think how to start my blog ..

Hmmm.. Do u noe that all humans are very greedy, they wan more than their expectation .. ?

Well.. i think everyone is like tat rite ? that's include myself too.. i always wanted a guy who is so sweet, like .. i expect him to do this, do that.. like follow drama series or wat.. i mean all girls are like that ma .. they expect their bf to be so understanding .. but must see how they show.. perhaps i always wanted to see him being understanding to wat i need..

cos one day, my feets hurt a lot due to the training thing and i was wearing a pair of court shoes and it's pointed shoes somemore.. then my feets also got blisters on my small toes .. that was the most terrible thing i ever got .. then cannot stand too long also.. needless to say even walk also will die.. cos when standing the feet keep on goin forward due to the high heel ma.. then the pointed shoes was like quite squeezy for my 4 littles toes .. and 1 big toe..

Then the most unfortunate thing is that when we go home, we took the train ... when we first entered the train.. still got spaces ma .. but due to my "handicap", i cannot move fast to take the seats.. hey .. dun say i very kia su or wat.. when u wear tat time u will noe y i wan to sit.. u ask me other day if i not wearing the court shoes, i dun mind standing from pasir ris to boon lay.. tat day i really wanted to sit badly.. then his case is like ... cos he always take train to my house from his house or to his sch .. he get used to standing .. so he dun might standing from city hall to eunos.. so.. i was quite upset and disappointed to his reactions ( he walk to the door there and stand) lolx!!! i was like .. huh ? yr gf in pain, u still wan her to stand.. u understanding anot ? ..

Then i told him..in a upset and a bit angry tone.. then he was like.. feeling that he himself is an useless bf or wat.. =X... then when comes to my stop.. he tried to help me take my bag.. but my bag that colourful one he dun like to take one lor .. cos all along he say like very pai sei.. doesn't suit him or wat.. but when u standing beside a gal and carry that bag hor .. ppl sure noe u carrying for yr gf one ma... i always see guys carry for a gal i felt very envious .. not that he didnt offer to help me take .. he got carry my black sling bag .. but those girl's de handbags.. he didnt.. =( ..

anyway .. back to that mrt hor.. he so called "snatched" cos he was feelin upset .. then he see me in pain .. then he wans to carry that bag for me.. but i noe him too well ... i noe he dun like to carry this bag .. then some more ppl snatch from u .. shows that the person dun like it but being force to do it lor .. then i really got angry .. then i threaten him .. if he dun return me the bag... i will not go home .. in the end .. he returned.. i saw the sadness in his eyes... i heart pain ... =(

That's how e gals see how guys treat them .. but we should not take things for granted.. a small little move (which we didnt notice) means a lot..and we like to see and rmb the negative sides then the positive sides.. lolx ...

Cos on tat day... while we walking at the city link.. he was rushing .. then my feets cannot ta han ... then i said " hey .. u noe my feets hurt lor.. then still walk so fast .." first thing came to yr mind is that he not understand.. but actually he wans to end my pain faster .. faster go home .. faster take out shoes, faster end the pain .. =) ..that was the touching part..

While waiting outside at the waruku restaurant, there's no seat available.. then he asked me to take out the shoes.. stand on his NIKE shoes... $ 170 ++ shoes.. if me.. i will xin tong.. cos if stand then got the skin of the shoes crack or wat .. not nice ma.. but he said" nvm.. stand on it" i was like ... awwwww... so sweet..

Then i came from a poor family background.. not so poor or wat la .. but my allowance sometime got take or nvr take .. cos i noe that my parents sometime quite short of cash ma.. then i dun dare to ask for money ..

One day, my wallet really no money liao .. dun noe spend on wat .. then but i not so worried abt my money .. cos can lose weight ma .. no money=no food= lose weight. LOLX .. the next day morning .. i was smsing to him .. then he asked .. got money to eat anot.. then i told him i dun have money .. but nvm la, can cut weight .. then he replied to me this " *chanting some magic words* go check yr wallet" i was like huh ? then i went and checked my wallet.. Eh ? how come got money .. then somemore it more than my parents will give me one lor ..

i replied" Eh? when u put the money in my wallet ?"

he : "when u asleep that night, i asked the angel to put in yr wallet."

I was like dumbfounded.. oh man... isnt he so sweet ? i felt so so touch.. he's there whenever i need help ... he's always be there for me ...

That's lot more to say abt him .. but it's getting very "early" .. haha .. the sun is coming out soon.. better go and sleep liao .. haha

p.s : Cont on the next blog .. =) (if i have time )

2006-07-13T07:29:00.000-07:00

Have u ever wait for ppl for 3 hrs and not getting angry with that person ?

Haha.. i think no one will except him... i really admired his patience ...

I had to stay back in school to finish up my project .. but i took 3 hrs to finish up my project...=X
leaving him downstair alone.. i was so sorry and guilty ... really regret meeting up with him ... cos today's meeting dun look like meeting, more like waiting ...

i was quite surprise that he didnt feel angry or wat ... instead he hug me .. and say he understand ...so sweet, rite ????? haha

*cal... sorry wor~ .. but dun forget that i owe u a meal to make up the waiting* =D

2006-07-10T22:17:00.000-07:00

Finally...I'm able to blog ... for the past few days... i was so busy .. even opening this website also got prob .. guess God wants me to blog next time ... lol ..

Recently .. i am taking this medicine for my "adnormal" period ... well ... i read the instruction .. it stated there that some ppl might get some side effects ... which include headache, gain weight, dizzyness, blah blah ...etc...

Things started off well ... after the 3rd day of consuming this medi .. i started to have some headache during at night only .. at first i tot it was the reception of my hp .. i didnt take note of i t.. the headache continues ...

even in school .. i started to look so blur .. i mean i found out myself do things slowly than normal days .. i cant stand it ... i got stressed up easily .. the school works and projects .. i haven even prepared it yet ..sometimes.. i think perhaps it was my time management and the priorities i set are all wrong...

I have to accept the facts that when u got into poly .. u r ALONE !!! The faces of all my best frenz came flashing in my mind ... where r they ?? *sob sob* i miss their laughters...

I met up with him.. hey.. he's down with flu again .. i always say him weak..cos even if he drank that $1000 US tonic also no use to him .. .. haha .. anyway i hate to see him ill .. cos .. my heart aches each time he sneeze ... LOL... i know he's trying his best not to spread his "sickness" to me .. "hey .. jus a flu .. i'm strong, ok ? Stay close to me.."

That night .. my throat started to irritate ... What a hot weather ..

On sat, 08-07-2006, went out with a group of frens .. i started feeling cold ..i was like -_-!!! ... it was such a rarest time to go out with frens and relax, u know !?! ...y today ? after awhile .. i started coughing and sneezing ..* beep beep .. * drink more water, ok? =)

That evening .. i got this church services at parkway parade .. and all my frenz have left to attend some appt... i decided to went shopping alone at parkway to kill my time...*aw... man ... the headache is getting worst ..* .. abt.. 5.45 .. i met one of the church member, Steve... so we decided to go to church together ...

I was about to cross the road ... i didnt notice wat is on the floor .. my right feet stepped onto it .. and slipped .. u might scold me "y u didnt look on the floor?" Who the hell would look on the floor all the time while walking ? .. perhaps those ppl who always find money on the floor...

the next thing came onto my mind is SUPPORT !!! my the other feet !!! it was a slope.. then the floor was like.. very little friction for me .. so are my slippers... THEREFORE!.. it seems like roller blading ...(hey .. i fell before while roller blading .. it was totally different from wat i fell recently...) ... sometime we might fall accidentally but fall CORRECTLY... plz !! it's damn hurt ! fall onto yr butt= it's ok ... fall onto yr spinal cord= it's not OK AT ALL !!! ...u noe .. the bone between yr butt ?!? ...

the impact was so hard ! i could feel my whole body numb for a few seconds .. then my whole back was like AWWWWWWWWWW... i wanted to scream ... i wanted to faint ... Steve held on to my arms .. "can get up?" i shaked my head .. i couldn't move .. my back .. it was so so hurt ... somemore it was on sat ... so crowded !! i wasn't feeling embarrassed or wat at that time ..but i realised it's best not to laugh at ppl who fell .. cos ... u dun noe how ppl feel when they fell ...and PLEASE ... pick up wat u drop .. especially the place u drop is on the slope and the thing u drop is slippery... Wad if it was an elder people who stepped on it ? I believe their bone are much more fragile than mine....

realising sitting down there couldn't help .. instead it will make it worst cos it stopped the ppl from walking ... *i tot i was goin to paralyse* i stood up ... trying to check my back is it ok ? the food which i stepped ... stick onto my pants .. -_-!!! i couldn't turn and remove that food ... so i asked Steve to help me..

We have to move on .. cos the church service goin to start .. i couldn't walk fast ... i really scare that my bone was goin to crack or wat .. i called him ... i felt much better ... however .. my back continues to ache .. then the internal organ was like squeezing ... still .. i didnt cry .. until .. i heard his voice changed ...* tears started to roll down*... I first time hear him .........

Thru out the church service .. either i stand too long or clap my hands.. my back would hurt .. when the service ended .. we are suppose to go into cell groups .. i carried my bag.. awwww... my back hurts again .. then my pastor came to pray for me ... thanks .. it was much better .. i can carry my bag and walk to my group .. however .. my back still hurts sometime especially when i cough or sneeze ..

I went to the changi general hospital ..the receptionist took my temp and said i was down with fever .. i was required to wear a mask .. all the ppl there gave me that kind of "u got SARS" looks..
then i waited for the doc to call out my name ... about 15 mins later .. finally my turn .. the doc asked me what happen ... so i explained clearly and very detailed ..was waiting for her to check my back or wat .. she gave me the queue number and asked me to wait for my number ... eh ?

wad the hell... shouldnt have wasted my breathe ... after waiting for 10 mins .. my turn ...
upon hearing wat i said .. he asked me to lie down on the bed and pressed gently on my back .. "pain?" i shaked my head .. pressed some parts only and very gentle ... pain ? nope ... then pressed a little pressure on my kidney area ... pain ? nope .. a bit only.. n he press on my spinal cord ..i nodded my head ...

doc: "Ha.. nothing wrong with u, gal... "
cLaRa: "wad about the kidney i told u before i fell, i got this pain already..? "
doc: "Oh.. dun worry.. if u really have kidney prob.. ur facial expression will tell me u are really in pain .. and cos a stone in a kidney will cause a sharp sharp pain..."
doc: "and yr back will takes about 10 days to recover .."
HE DIDNT EXPLAIN TO ME Y AND WAT SHOULD I DO ....
cLaRa: "do i need any medicine to take ?"
doc: "do u wan pain killer?"
cLaRa: "no thanks..."

$65 for that consultation only ... my heart aches ...

2006-07-04T08:04:00.000-07:00

Deeply apologise for the FONT .. haha
i also dun know what to do liao

01-07-2006

Today ... i got so upset !!! i failed my microecons... the lowest marks in class ... i think that's wad i SHOULD get ... haha .. cos i haven been studying or doing homework ... got tied up with works and stuffs ..

So i got so moody .. then i decided to sms my sales rep that.. i need a break .. have to stop working for awhile .. well..i have to set my prioities ... i dun know was that an impulsive decision .. cos .. i actually tot of cooling off this relationship too ... T_T

I didnt replied any msg to him .. cos .. when i got so moody, i hate to sms .. haha .. er... i think i dun like smsing at all .. haha .. so irritating .. anyway .. he knows wad happen to me .. and my last msg was like hinting him or wad that i'm tired .. tired of everything .. he was so worried .. he came all the way here .. from west to east ...

Hey .. it took a lot of patience to take a train here ... 45 mins in train ... i myself dak bu leh ta han lor ...that's really touches me .. when i'm down .. there's always a person beside me, to care for me ... no matter where .. no matter when ... he jus came .. and the world was like .. turn into darkness ... fading away .. jus between u and me ... u know ... it's beyond description... =)

thruout .. i did told him the tot that i had .. he was kinda disappointed ?? .. i mean .. more to the sad part .. i looked into his eyes ... his eyes filled with passion .. he wants to be there for me .. my heart immediately melted ... cal .. i will never try to have a tot of kicking u away .. i'll promise ..

however.. i still not ok .. lol .. then suddenly he said wants to go 7-eleven .. i was like .. HUH ?.. y ? wad's there to buy ... so in the end we stop at one stop after my house bus stop .. haha .. complicated ? nvm .. i bring u to my house one day ...

u must be wondering y he wanted to go .. i myself also wonder ... haha .. the next minute .. i saw his hand full of chocolate .. i was like ..-_-.. lol !! first time seeing u buy so much .. and it's like out of sudden .. then i asked him .. " y u buy so many chocolates ? nvr see u buy b4 lor ..."
he gave me that sweet looking .. "that's for u .. to cheer u up " =) .. that sweet smile .. wa piang .. i wanted to faint liao ...

also make me feel so guilty of having that tot .. =X ..

cal .. thank u so much ...

2006-07-01T08:35:00.000-07:00

Oops .. Haven update my blog for so long.. have been busy with my works and projects stuff... haiz.. i think i regretted choosing this course.. however at the thought of working in hotels and stuff.. i felt better ... haha

anyway ...

26th June 2006..

This customer came and brought a gym bag to my counter. He requested for repair or get a new piece.. cos his handle spoiled..-_-. (he must have carried 2 sack of rice in his bag..) haha .. to cut the story short .. i actually make a lot of mistakes while attending to him ... i was embarrassed by being so "gong" .. then he left.. i realised that i didnt gave him the invoice ..

Fortunately he came back to seiyu to buy undergarments from Renoma.. i was so glad cos that thing is very impt .. so i went up to him and gave him that invoice.. he gave me that look .. the look of " huh ? y u so "gong" one ? " then i went back to my counter, Yisha and Sabrina actually found out that i wrote the wrong date .. Sian .. u still want me to go back to that customer ?

.... I went up to him and ask for that invoice again .. then i corrected the date.. i saw him shaking his head .. then he asked "u sure u didnt forget something ?" .. I nodded my head and quickly ran back ... oh no .. i was laughing like crazy and blushing at the same time... my ears gone red lor..

A few days later .. he came back to collect his bag.. We had a small chat .. he told me when zhi wei called him to collect his bag, he tot it was his fren and scolded him for disturbing with many hokkein vulgarities.. haha ..so again he teased me for being so "gong" .." R u sure i need to sign only one paper ? i dun wan to come back again.."

today, 01 july 2006, i was so busy with my work then suddenly he called up to me, i screamed ... lolx i was so shocked la.. he came to ask a new design of that billabong bag .. then i told him here dun have what he wan de .. he asked me where to get.. i dun seems to rmb other outlet have leh .. i just named him the places but not sure got anot ..

" can call and ask where got sell anot?" wa piang ... i am so busy, btw i dun have other outlets the number leh .. then he ask me to sms him if i found any shops sell this bag.. Anyway thru out the thing .. i think i got a bit being rude lor .. then he said this to me in front of his frens " is this the way how u treat yr customers ?" wa piang ...

I called wendi whether got sell this bag anot ... in the end i sms him this
clara:" Hey.. I checked up for u already.. my CO say there's no such bags.. maybe what u saw is an imitation bag ba.. from billabong promoter
He:"How abt telling me where to get that imitation bag ? haha.. juz joking.. maybe i try to see if i can find e model then i let u know ? Btw what's yr name ?"
clara:"Clara.. haha.. ok"
He:" k thanks.. Depending on u for discount liao..."
clara:" Sorry .. i'm jus a part timer .. cant give u any discount..."
Guess i misinterpret it .. shouldnt put cant GIVE u any discount..
He:"Staff purchase mah.. Dun calculative mah... So i depend on u liao .. THANKS"

I realised his motive of getting "close" as in frens la... HE WANTS THE DISCOUNT ....LOLX...

30th June 2006

I gave Jasmine some "preaching" .. haha .. hope i did washed her brain .. haha ..

anyway.. got closer to somebody .. then we went to eat supper .. haha .. very surprising lor .. cos that someone wont ask me out de .. cos of some lame excuses.. haha .. then we went to play photohunt .. spend $2 on it .. i find it very fun, hope they find it fun too...

2006-06-23T20:42:00.000-07:00

23th June 2006

Today was my bad day !! i nvr encounter such customer!!! =< ... this customer went to my counter touch all those folded clothes .. i went up and tell her "if u wan to take a look at the clothes, pls take a look at the display one in front.." then she stared at me like i own her money like that ... she jus dump the folded clothes on e shelving.. i was like -_-.. what's wrong with u ? then her daughter touch billabong cap, this lady scolded her " Dun touch lah! she say cannot touch means cannot touch! " In my heart say, WHAT THE HELL !!! i didnt say cannot touch lor ... -_- she kept walking around and take a look .. i already bu shuan liao ... at the same time, she was holding my billabong pencil case .. when she was abt to walk to the cashier .. i called her .. "wait, the pencil case...." (finger pointing @ e pencil case) she said " what ? wo mei you tou leh ! (i didnt steal leh) wo yao qu cashier gei qian leh (i wan to go to the cashier pay money leh)"
-_-!!! she shouted !!!! ok .. fine .. i said " wo mei jiang ni tou leh.. wo xu yao kai dan.." then she bui song .. give me the pencil case.. i continued" btw i didnt say cannot touch , i say look at e display one and i say it in a polite manner.." she replied " Company send u down to do this kind of things (this kind of things = folding clothes) not to ask customers not to touch .. customers want to touch wha, they can touch.." i was boiling with rage !!! " I repeat myself clearly i didnt say u cannot TOUCH !!" then she cut off my words " i dun care.. write faster leh .. write down yr name !!"
" Dun worry.. here got my name.." -_-
i wrote half way .. " WRITE DOWN YR FULL NAME"
"ok ! I'm writing ! "
" i'm goin to give your name to the manager ! "
i think they lip read me mouth .. i said bai ci (idiot)
LOLX
i haven finish writing my memo .. she snatched it away .. WHAT KIND OF ATTITUDE !!! i scolded all the vulgarities behind her ...i was so angry .. so angry till i wan to cry ..then before they went down by escalator, they went to "diao" me ... i also "diao" them back ..LOLX
oh ya !! i miss one point .. when i try to continue when she said giving my name to the manager.. her husband also added in " say some more .. u still wan to say some more .. u r making the things worst .. u should noe customers are ALWAY RIGHT !!!"
i keep quiet liao ... sian diao !!!

After my work.. cal came to fetch me .. we going Jasper's 21st brithday chalet.. we dun know wat to buy for him .. so we decided to give ang bao .. haha ... very weird hor ?? like elder then give ang bao to the younger one .. but he's 3 yr older than me leh ..oops!

We actually went to eat first before going to jasper's chalet .. LOLX .. crazy .. cos we tot it was bbq one ma .. then raining heavily some more .. -_-.. later jasper sms saying it was BUFFET ... lol.. ok .. we arrived there ard 8 plus .. apple and alan are trying very hard to joke .. to "entertain " cal i think .. haha ... i was like.. fake fake laugh ...Glad jasper said that we gave him de present was the most special one ... HAHA ...*psst .. someone wasnt look happy"

anyway.. we went off early .. abt 9 plus i think .. we went to walk at the pasir ris beach .. nice breeze .. i like the sea smell .. haha .. but i wasnt feeling so happy .. cos someone so quiet .. dun noe wat he's thinking .. lol.. after walking and sitting down for 4 hrs ... we decided to went back to downtown seek for shelter first.. in case it rains .. it really did .. haha .. i was very tired liao .. so sorry cal.. then i've been yawning all the way.. haha
i slept on e table .. realised he watching me sleep .. =X .. i wan to entertain him .. dun wan to make him feel lonely ... lolx .. but he insist me to slp.. awww... so sweet .. guess what ?
he was actually thnking of ways to let me slp comfortabiliy .. awww. so sweet... he manange to think of some ways ..i slpt on his legs .. i think i did fell aslp then i woke up .. thinking of him not slping .. many times liao .. i spoilt the whole thingy .. oops .. lolx ... btw it's very cold , u know? then he cover me with his towel... watched me slp ... (a small little move makes a lot of diff) I WAS SO TOUCHED BY HIS SMALL LITTLE MOVES ...T_T .. nearly cry ..
then he knows i quite cant slp ... haha ... so we decided to go home .. that was abt 3 plus in the morning ...
i was quite broke too ... then i didnt go home ma .. my mom said if u dun come home at nite ... she's not going to giv me $$ ... then cal gave me the $$ ... OMG... i was lik e... awwww so sweet .. tot he wont actually think of my nessecities... lol... then i said dun need .. my mom will give one .. she jus joking with me ... lol...

being his gf .. i felt more pampered .. pampered by his money some times .. LOLX.. but i wish not to be so pampered .. lol
i dun wan to be a spoilt gf too ..=D
i started to realise that we spend damn lots of money .. on transport and food... especially the transportation .. i guess when he with me he spend triple than he spend with his fren ... =X .. the cab fare .. from east to west ...
the things i wan to buy .. he paid for me FIRST ... lol ... i told him " i think i OWE u quite a lot of money hor..." HAHA ..."how much ? is it $150 ? wait till i got my pay then i pay u back.."
he said this which really makes my heart melt ..T_T " wan to pay me back ? pay me with yr life.."

I'm so fortunate... Not a bad day afterall ....

2006-06-22T08:18:00.000-07:00

Woot~ Finally got my own blog liao... haha
i took such a long time to think how to write ... where or when should i start my blog .. -_-... i'll start toking abt ytd ba..

21-06-2006

i started work at 10.30 but i got there at 10 (psst.. first time so early...lolx).. i tot seiyu opens at 10 .. waste my 30 mins .. anyway .. the stock checking i finally done..=D .. then zhi wei .. my supervisor came and tok to me .. he ask how's my stock.. nice supervisor is it ?
actually no .. lolx... he wanted to noe which stock very old ... no one buy de.. i told him .. but i regret telling him .. cos i need to do the stock return ... also hai my company lost money ..=X.. so next time i need to watch my mouth ..LOLX

i was so happy .. someone came over .. haha ... guess wat i got 2 new asst helpers FOC.. haha
they help me with my stocks .. anyway that guy hor .. to me he dosent look like a promoter to me leh ... haha.. but y all customers ask him, not me .. some more i'm wearing my promoter badge .. so weird ...weirdos..LOLX

after that we finally decided to go parkway .. i tot shuttle bus everyday have one .. haha .. in the end we waited at the stand like a fool .. -_- ..lucky .. someone read that poster .. or else ..u know... haha .. when we realised abt it .. i saw some ppl giggling .. r they luffing at our foolishness ? i was so pai sei ... i think i was trying to cover my face by hiding behind him... HAHA !! oops!

Cal's stomach singing liao ... we decided to go bedok jetty via east coast park (ECP) ... haha . first time that person decided to go where... cos most of the time i was e one deciding the place and ... was't that a guy's job ? lolx.. anyway .. MOST gals dun like it ... yea.. including myself.. hehe ..

on our way .. we saw some jellyfish at the wakeboarding area ... haha .. our hand so itchy ... we took a stick, wanted to bring up the jellyfish ... i try to press the jellyfish onto the wall then slowly bring up.. but if u imagine u were the jellyfish .. pain anot ? like very pain hor ? =( ... in the end we really become "itchy" (cos of the mosquitoes bites) lolx

woah .. what a big feast ... ppl saw the table also tot that was for 3 to 4 ppl eat de ... but ther was only 2 of us .. haha.. we ordered fried oyster omelette,roti john, sting ray and 15 satay sticks with 2 "TUTUPAT" lolx.. plus one extra hokkein mee .. actually that hokkein can dun buy one .. dun noe who say " i scare u eat not enuff leh ... " then some more i didnt know got roti john .. i go buy .. haha .. then when i came back ... wa ... so many plates .. then he like -_- de look .. lolx we try to force ourselve to eat ... but i dak bu leh ta han .. eat tilll i nearly vomit .. lolx... we go took a walk .. the sky was so beautiful but cannot compare with the first one we went de ..lolx.. i will always rmb this ...

cal.. let's go and take a flight to somewhere where there's millions of stars !!! =X